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he even deleted my phone number in his hand phone, why he can move on so easily?

he'll gonna have a flight on 15 of sept at 4 am to uk to forward his study. he said he is too busy for this few days, cant hang out with me. ya, maybe he is right, we should not meet anymore. i rather to remember all the sadness also dont want to forget D. he seems like so important to me???

i dont know, he just keep popping out in my mind. fark. i am so tension, so emo, so mood less. numb.

tear-less, numb. just need to find the way to go through. time. need some times.

hope so...

just fark off everything, do something extreme. wow...insane, crazy. what the problem with me??? something goes wrong to me.

ya ya, i know i will heal somehow, but the process is hard.

feeling-less

second time to cut myself. feeling less, kinda scary. in the same place, did the same action, twice. yet, with the different feeling.

[ thanks for watching as i fall ]______end