i am not from a rich family, but i have everything in my life, but i still not perfect. i only can find my perfect in my drawing. is just like i can create all the perfect by my imagination on a piece of blank paper.
i love to draw. that is the only way i can let myself calm down into a peace condition. is kinda hard to discribe how is the feel like while i am drawing,it's like amazing, is wonderful. the flow while i am drawing is fantastic, everything is going so liveful. E said i was mental disorder, am i??
well, what E said to me, i think is kinda true. she said that i don't really know what i need. yup, i think she's right.in the other hand, i think that i am not that strong, maybe. although sometimes i look strong. but most of the time i am so coward. i really dare not to try new stuff, but at last, i need to force myself to try new stuff. i acctually don't know how to make new friends, b'cause i think that i am not that perfact for others. i think that they aren't need me so much.
arh... writing a blog is so hard for me. maybe i am not suitable to write a blog.
or maybe i dislike to share with others. i only like to share with my close friends. yeah.. i don't have many close friends too, i can count my close friends on my one hand, haha....sounds like so pathectic. but anyway, love you guys so much.
i love to draw. that is the only way i can let myself calm down into a peace condition. is kinda hard to discribe how is the feel like while i am drawing,it's like amazing, is wonderful. the flow while i am drawing is fantastic, everything is going so liveful. E said i was mental disorder, am i??
well, what E said to me, i think is kinda true. she said that i don't really know what i need. yup, i think she's right.in the other hand, i think that i am not that strong, maybe. although sometimes i look strong. but most of the time i am so coward. i really dare not to try new stuff, but at last, i need to force myself to try new stuff. i acctually don't know how to make new friends, b'cause i think that i am not that perfact for others. i think that they aren't need me so much.
arh... writing a blog is so hard for me. maybe i am not suitable to write a blog.
or maybe i dislike to share with others. i only like to share with my close friends. yeah.. i don't have many close friends too, i can count my close friends on my one hand, haha....sounds like so pathectic. but anyway, love you guys so much.
2 comments:
no one is perfect for anyone. neither you nor me dear...
and don't think it's nat this and nat that cause i'd been doing the same thing to nat, it's like sha this, sha that, sha sha sha. and no one can take your place ok? no one, that's why nat want me to live on my own, he keep telling me that you won't be by my side forever, and i have to learn how to stand on my own. but for now, let's just f*** it all first... chill with you first
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