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just went to club. i am so regret that i went to club again...WASTING MY TIME !!! and is boring there, no mood. what the fish....what the hell i went to that kind of place?? what happen to me?? it is damn busy, some more went to club??!! fart sha, fart sha...damn it. all those memories just popped up in my mind. what the fart...?! i won't ever go to club ANYMORE !!!!!! no!!!! never!!! hate clubbing!!! lala.....fart...some more figthing..?! huh?? i mean what the hell were they doing?? was so unmature.!! i am so going wrong. what am i doing now i also don't know. i need someone that can love me, can be with me, can share all my moment, my everything. is hard to forget 'bout D i know. i know!! he went to uk, and i know that he won't come back to me anymore....although he will come back after 1 year. but what's the diffrent? he will come back to M'sia but he WILL NEVER COME BACK FOR ME ANYMORE!!! all he need is his future, i know. i sure will fully support him, but what 'bout me? he will never thing 'bout me....?! huh?? what the hell he is? he can be that cruel. i mean he can just let go llike...like.... so easy?? so easy to move on!!! or i am just to care 'bout what we had and what i lost?? and he is still like nothing happen bafore??? am i myself too care 'bout what i lost? come on, i am not that strong to handle all those sadness in my life... i am still a human, an ordinary human, man...... damn it..